No more Gangster Rap

Hi my name is Sanjay and a couple of years ago I lived, slept and breathed Rap music. Thinking about it now, it seems that I had no direction in my life and was lashing out at my parents and life in general. I was an angry person and rap music was the perfect medium. I dressed and spoke like Jay-Z, loved just listening to Jadakiss, B.I.G. Snoop dogg, Eminem, 50 cents, D12 and had this obsession with outkast. I watched Rap city everyday so much so that I thought that I couldnt live without it, but all that changed. I went as far as starting my own Rap group called the 'Syndicators' performed and cut albums, radio interviews, newspaper interviews, groupies and dancers the whole nine yards. When I left St.Lucia and came to Barbados, all that continued. I dressed and talked with the same demeanor; cussing, entering freestyle competitions, fighting and spending every waking hour listening to and studying rap music. Then on my first day at college I met my Pharmacology professor and he was a christian and I laughed at that possibility, I thought Christians were people who were to coward to deal with the real world so they had to hide behind an invisible God to protect them. After going to his classes and saw how at peace he was with God and how God centered his life it showed me how unhappy I was. There he was being himself and happy whereas I had to buy album after album, go clubbing, and looking for sex with strange women to be happy. Eventually I started talking to him and a bible fell into my hands. WOW!
When I started reading I couldn't put it down if I tried. To know who God was showed me who I had to be, such love and patience, undertstanding the true character of God changed my life. I wasnt angry anymore, I got closer to my family. Moving from the Old testiment and going up to the new and learning more about Christ was ever more powerful. I got purpose and meaning and most of all perpetual peace in everything. I learnt that solely depending on Christ is not weak but it takes a lot of strength and trust. Rap music became so trivial and a complete waste of time, I began to see that what these rappers were singing about was simply put...trash and material nonsense....women,drugs and jewellery. Thank you lord! This just shows the importance of spreading the Gospel to those who are without, who knows if I never met my Porfessor I wouldve been even more angry at the world and only God knows where I would be right now. Instead I am married, working, new house to start a family, my family in St.lucia is happy I am blessed still serving my Lord to this day and the journey so far has been amazing. Thank you lord.
Even while writing this testimony I realized that I didnt just put away rap music ( by the strength of Christ) but I also put away clubbing, alcohol, fornication, and fighting. Wow! There is definitely power in the word. This also makes me understand that there are alot of lonely, angry and confused people out there who know nothing about our wonderful saviour. This is now my purpose, to spread the Gospel and reintroduce Christ to those who never met him or met him and misunderstood his true Character.